we are born to live and we live to die and the cycle goes on i really don't understand why such a mechanism is created and is existing. i know i am not the only one who have this question yeah this turns out to be a million dollar question. feeling sick just because i am unable to figure out any single reason for my existance. after being failed in studies,love, the competition of "being the fittest" . i hate this race obviously because i am a big failure in this race. feeling stupid and foolish almost most of the times of a day, unable to find out a category in the race in which i can win i had only one option "quit the race and hate the race" lol lol lol.
they say that birth to youth is the best period in life. somehow i have seen it all by now. they also say that "give urself some time things will always get better " so i kind of figured out that all i have to do is waiting waiting and waiting. so i started waiting for nothing but the time to pass on but this is a very big task to accomplish. while you wait you think a hell lot of things and calculate the profits and loss and conclude agin that you are a failure so i decided to do things that will keep me alive and stop my brain from thinking "i".
being idiot, dumb, beautiful, ugly, intelligent, rich, poor, loved, dumped, strong, weak, big, small, i have felt it all in different points of my life i know this is the way its supposed to be up and down and i am not complaining the way it is. but all i am asking is why is this system existing? now that we know how it feels to live in the existing system i wonder how would it be if there exist nothing :)
